How Anxiety Change My Life: From Hero to Zero

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Assalamualaikum and hye all 🌻

It's been a while since I write anything on my blog. I've had a long rest for myself and for my mental health. Me, myself is not so well as my life is turning upside down. 

I was once a happy little girl. I started develop the feeling of anxious since I was little. But who cares, as a little kid, the things that I only know are fun, joyful, happiness. I only know how to play and what I want to play. Also, I quite brave in everything as kids love to try anything new. That's how I am when I'm a small kid. Brave, happy and an explorer. Although, sometimes, I did wondering how my adult life would turn out?

When I'm getting bigger, I started going to school, I have to study. I was taught by my parents that you have to be an excellent student if you want to have a good life one day. They told me that being adult will be never easy and life as an adult is always challenging- I guess they right about these facts. 

Consequently, I'm getting scared of what they've said. As I always wondering how my adult life will turn out, of course I am scared if I didn't land a good job, good house, good everything. Definitely, I am very afraid if I can't have a promising future. I always afraid that I will fail. In my whole life, I can never imagine what it's like to fail. 

I always a bright student with a promising future, like everybody knows that I will have a bright promising future. I rarely fail of everything I did. I barely failed myself, and my expectations. That is why, I always so optimistic,positive and confidence. It is because everytime I worked hard for something, I will get it. So, I believe God will provide you as long as you worked hard. Plus, I also believe that mind is the key of your success. 

Fake the smile till you're happy

Until one day, everything changes. I didn't get what I wanted for. Even I have worked really hard to get it. I prayed so hard for it. It is the starting point of my life when everything turns out bad. I started to know the feel of fails like. I started losing momentum in my life. And in myself. Even while writing this article, I am feeling anxious. A lot of things are playing in my mind. 

Additionally, I started losing almost everything I've ever had in my life; my optimistic trait, my posivity vibes, my confidence, my joy, my braveness, my world, and even my love. Yes! I lose him because I can't explain to him about my condition, about myself, about how I want to take a break from the world. I am sorry (I hope he saw this post). I wish I could make him undertsands. 

I started to seek for therapists; counsellors and psychologist. They are so nice 😍. Thank you for having me. I am touched 🥺. And some of my friends do help too. Glad I have nice friends like them. Friend in need is friend indeed, isn't it? 

So, that's the story of how I became from a hero to a zero. How I became from a hope to a flop. But it's okay now, because I believe, sometimes you just need to rely on God and only Him. And now, fail is actually nothing in life because that's how life works, fail and success. 

Now, I am getting better. Even though, nothing is same as before. I know I can't get rid of my anxiety. It has been there since I can remember. But at least, I will have my confidence back. Also, my momentum. Nobody will undertands me. Even my own families. I don't blame them because I know it's really hard to do that. We cannot understand people. Because that's what make humans special. 

Me, just always be me

Anyways, I just want to remind you so that you do not lose hope in yourself. Trust yourself. ALWAYS. Because at the end of the day, it's only you. I hope this post will benefits all of you in some way. Don't forget to comment and share this post. And don't forget to follow me blog too. 😘

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